Part of me will
Never stop missing you.
And part of me will
Never learn how to forget you.
There will never be a day
That I can make sense of as to why
You’re not here by my side.
Or why we couldn’t set aside
Our issues for the sake of love.
From day one we made empty
Promises in hopes things could
Be how we wanted.
Together. Whole. To actually feel alive.
I took away my training wheels
But the problem was I wasn’t ready to be
On my own. I grabbed onto you for my life.
I never held onto something so tight.
I wasn’t ready for a love like this.
And neither were you.
You shrugged me off more as days and
Months passed. You couldn’t confide
The way I did. I felt betrayed. Stupid.
I felt lost. Without you my world stopped
Spinning. But with you I couldn’t even
Keep up. You always had to have the lead.
My biggest regret will be letting you
Leave this life of mine thinking I didn’t
Love you. Thinking I couldn’t love you.
Yet you are what defined my love.
My hope. My heart. The air in my lungs.
It was all for you. You were all I knew.
You told me you’d die for this;
But you didn’t want it to be this way.
That this wasn’t what you meant.
That you couldn’t handle death by
A broken heart. A broken body.
If I was given a choice in how
I could leave this world,
I’d choose death by our love every time.
Because at least for once in my life,
Something was real.
“Find what you love and let it kill you.”